sep 15

i had a bunch of drafts, but i supposed if i dont log in daily its hard to keep up with this motherhood/literatti/takeover lifestyle.
as singel motherhood continues to take up every inch of my life, (well the children do, not the motherhood) i continue to graduate from human to just full on mom. it has overtaken me and i really am not putting up i fight. i could with the one, but the addition has just brought me to my knees. i'm happy, so for t he time being, i dont really care. do i miss my friends? sure. do i wanna dress up and to stay up past 9 to see them? no. do i i have extra money to spend on pricey dinners or parties? not in the slightest. its a win win.
these days, or shall i say day, my hapiness is measured in bizzare ways.
you see, i'm on a day to day basis with my relationship with myself, the cosmos and those around. i have so many schedules to conform to (baby, boy, school, work, nanny, far off husband, organic buying club, target)) that come 4pm i want no obligations. no gym. no nada. i'm getting the hang of it. just get all my shit done, run the kids around a bit, you know exhaust them and then pass out. all this running tolls on my energy. to them its just business as usual.
so what if i'm boring, introspective, ordinary? thats ok, i'm gearing up to take over the world later, once i'm able to stay up past ten.